Image Credit: Tina’s personal archive Moments, captured, kept, protected. I always liked taking pictures but didn’t really take many. About 10 months after Tapio died, I learned that taking pictures eases my anxiety, so this is one of my go to activities on those days. I go out and take … [Read more...]
His ~Magic~
Image Credit: Tina’s personal archive There are so many things that I don’t remember. I don’t remember how it felt before grief took over; how relationships and life in general influenced my emotional and mental state then. Was I always happy and content? Was my mind not as occupied? I … [Read more...]
“Better”
Image Credit: Tina’s personal archive The days are getting longer in the north where I am. Winter filled. Snow, ice, cold. I feel I have been doing better, whatever better means. I take better with some reservation, because every day is still hard and painful. Better is hard making itself … [Read more...]
The Shadows
Image Credit: Tina’s personal archive This morning I woke up with a scream that woke my husband. I couldn’t breathe. I got up and I found my spot in my daughter’s bed. It was not enough for me to feel her warmth or hear her breathing, I needed to hold her and I needed her to know I was there and … [Read more...]
The Love and Grief Conversations
Image Credit: Tina’s personal archive My daughter is 6. She loves babies. She talks a lot. She also talks a lot about her brother. The three listed are her favorites, talking about her baby brother. Many of our conversations end up talking about him and I love it. She is my buddy. K: Mami, now … [Read more...]