He was missing. He was missing way before. Way before he became. His place was with us before I was facing secondary infertility and he just did not happen, his place was with us before we moved countries, his place was with us even when we held our first newborn son while mourning my husband’s … [Read more...]
Tonight
Everything of the last weeks has been focused on today. Joining a choir has been one of the most gentle, healing and important choices I have made for myself in the last six months. Every week's practice has been the place to relax, cry, laugh and connect. I sometimes feel like I live my life as an … [Read more...]
The Day I Left Him Behind
The memory of that day is still very present for me. The day that I held it together while I was falling apart. The day that has so much meaning, but I wish it did not exist. The day that was so full but left me going home empty handed. That day that started it all, this process, this work, this … [Read more...]
Connection
If you are like me, you look for things that you associate with your child. Symbols, objects, anything that closes the gap between here and there just a little. First, I had a painting made. I had a vision of a fun loving boy riding on a shooting star in the sky above me. He was always going to be … [Read more...]
CHOOSING WHAT DEFINES YOU
I n my interview with Jonathan and Carrie Fisher-Pascual she shared this beautiful quote. So, what defines you? What do you want to define you in the days to come? The interview I conducted with Carrie and Jonathan is part of the series on 'Grieving Parents dealing with the Loss of their … [Read more...]