He was missing. He was missing way before. Way before he became. His place was with us before I was facing secondary infertility and he just did not happen, his place was with us before we moved countries, his place was with us even when we held our first newborn son while mourning my husband’s … [Read more...]
The Day I Left Him Behind
The memory of that day is still very present for me. The day that I held it together while I was falling apart. The day that has so much meaning, but I wish it did not exist. The day that was so full but left me going home empty handed.That day that started it all, this process, this work, this … [Read more...]
Beginnings
These are my thoughts from the early days. There are parts I didn't think I was ever going to talk about. Parts I felt I needed to hide, because of shame and fear. Grief morphs all the time and what all this change has done for me is that I am open and able to share my whole story as it is. There is … [Read more...]
SURVIVING
This is from the movie Return to Zero:If you can stick around for the miracle of the power of love and strength and of coming back together, of surviving something that splits you so far apart, if you can allow yourself to help each other and to heal... That's the sort of fundamental way … [Read more...]