He was missing. He was missing way before. Way before he became. His place was with us before I was facing secondary infertility and he just did not happen, his place was with us before we moved countries, his place was with us even when we held our first newborn son while mourning my husband’s … [Read more...]
Lesson 7: Forgiveness is Essential
Forgiveness is Essential Learning to forgive has been the hardest part of my healing journey. The wounds inflicted by cold and unsupportive loved ones cut deep. I resisted forgiveness for a long time because I misunderstood it. I thought it meant giving the harmful people in my life a pass and … [Read more...]
Lesson 6: A Legacy is Not a Replacement
Legacy is Not a Replacement Co-founding Teamotions has given me a meaningful way to create a legacy for Aubrey and Ellie and I'm very proud of what we've accomplished, but its success has not for one second been worth losing them. I'd trade it all in a heartbeat to have my babies back. It is … [Read more...]
Tonight
Everything of the last weeks has been focused on today.Joining a choir has been one of the most gentle, healing and important choices I have made for myself in the last six months. Every week's practice has been the place to relax, cry, laugh and connect. I sometimes feel like I live my life as an … [Read more...]
Connection
If you are like me, you look for things that you associate with your child. Symbols, objects, anything that closes the gap between here and there just a little.First, I had a painting made. I had a vision of a fun loving boy riding on a shooting star in the sky above me. He was always going to be … [Read more...]