He was missing. He was missing way before. Way before he became. His place was with us before I was facing secondary infertility and he just did not happen, his place was with us before we moved countries, his place was with us even when we held our first newborn son while mourning my husband’s … [Read more...]
The Day I Left Him Behind
The memory of that day is still very present for me. The day that I held it together while I was falling apart. The day that has so much meaning, but I wish it did not exist. The day that was so full but left me going home empty handed.That day that started it all, this process, this work, this … [Read more...]
You Are Me
and I am You.The source of our pain might be different, but our hearts ache. The missing is real, your feelings are real, your pain is real. I hear you, I hear you when you speak and I hear you when you are quiet and within yourself. I see you, I see you pull back when the conversation gets too … [Read more...]
Relationships
My father called today. He said it has been a month since we have spoken. He asked about my health, and I get surprised when he does that because there is nothing wrong with my physical health. He uses the specific vocabulary as if referring to my physical well being, but actually asking about my … [Read more...]
Grief Reflections – Handling Anniversaries
Welcome to our next Grief Reflections gathering where we will be discussing how we cope and handle birthdays, anniversaries and due dates of our babies and children that have died.If you have a question that you would like to see us discuss, you can submit it here privately below in the form … [Read more...]