Sometimes I don’t have the words. They are heavy to form, heavy to come by, heavy to express. I feel like I am under water, trying to speak and undefined sounds come out. They don’t even form in my brain.Grief has had this effect on me. Whenever my life becomes griefheavy, I shut down on some … [Read more...]
Captured Moments
Moments, captured, kept, protected.I always liked taking pictures but didn’t really take many. About 10 months after Tapio died, I learned that taking pictures eases my anxiety, so this is one of my go to activities on those days. I go out and take photos intentionally when I need a relief and … [Read more...]
His ~Magic~
There are so many things that I don’t remember.I don’t remember how it felt before grief took over; how relationships and life in general influenced my emotional and mental state then. Was I always happy and content? Was my mind not as occupied? I honestly don’t remember. It is probably more … [Read more...]
I Entered This World
His brother was six. He had been asking for a sibling for more years than I could count. That year, I finally got to tell him I was pregnant. On New Year's Eve, we had made a joke about no siblings that year and he had wept. He didn't yet fully realize the year would be over in four hours.I … [Read more...]