If you are like me, you look for things that you associate with your child. Symbols, objects, anything that closes the gap between here and there just a little. First, I had a painting made. I had a vision of a fun loving boy riding on a shooting star in the sky above me. He was always going to be … [Read more...]
Love Letter
I am a letter writer. From the first letter I wrote to my first pen friend many years ago, I was a letter writer. I wrote countless letters throughout teenage years and continued to do so far in my 20s, exchanging letters with friends, family, teachers, lovers. I feel like everything I wrote since … [Read more...]
Lesson 2: True Friends Will Show Themselves
True Friends Will Show Themselves Soul crushing, incurable tragedy scares people. It takes a brave person to run toward a grieving mother instead of away from her. I was surprised when the people I thought would stay by my side didn't and others showed up I never imagined would. It hurt at first, … [Read more...]
Lesson 1: Borrowing Hope
In the early years of my grief, I learned to borrow hope. That means, when I just couldn't see how life would ever be ok again, I looked for others who had been through loss and were now role models of hope and healing. I borrowed from people who had gone before me. I poured over their books, blogs, … [Read more...]
Ten Lessons in Ten Weeks After Ten Years of Healing
It has been ten years since Aubrey and Ellie died. Ten years. I never thought I'd get through ten minutes without them let alone ten years. For those of you who don't know my story, my twin daughter died after 7 and 13 days of life in 2008. I was 28 years old with a 2 and a half-year-old son … [Read more...]