Healing is Not Betrayal In the beginning, my love for Aubrey and Ellie was reflected in my pain. All you had to do was take one look at my tear-covered face and it was clear how much those little girls meant to me. As I made progress in my healing something strange started to happen; healing … [Read more...]
Lesson 8: Alcohol Stifles Healing
Alcohol Stifles Healing After Aubrey and Ellie died I felt for the first time the kind of pain that would make someone want to put a needle in their arm. Although I didn't, I certainly found other ways to numb the hurt. One of those ways was to drink. Alcohol is highly effective at stifling pain, … [Read more...]
Lesson 5: Healing is Holistic
Healing is Holistic I am constantly asked if I could give a grieving mom one piece of advice, what would it be? The truth is, there is no one thing. I had to adopt an entirely different way of living. I had to make caring for my heart a lifestyle. Everything I did on my healing journey mattered; … [Read more...]
Lesson 4: Grief Didn’t Get Lighter, I Got Stronger
Grief Didn’t Get Lighter, I Got Stronger I miss my girls every day and I will until the day I die. This is just the reality of life without them. It is a myth that grief dissipates on its own. It doesn't. Instead, I have learned how to become stronger so what used to be too heavy for me feels like … [Read more...]
Lesson 3: I’ll Never Be Who I Used To Be
I’ll Never Be Who I Used To Be It took me years to realize I wasn't just grieving the loss of my sweet girls, but the loss of my 'before' self. I'll admit I tried very hard for a long time to get my old self back. I missed her and didn't want to lose her too. The first step for me was to make peace … [Read more...]